Living a life in solitude and incompleteness can be a daunting situation. Let’s start my writing with a simple question: Why do we often feel ashamed, alone, and totally misunderstood? Why they say – A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts. So seldom we lose touch with reality, and more often we live in a world of illusion. But today I Just wanna talk about the misconception and stigma of mental solitariness. Is This really true for people who suffer from a severe mental illness?

Ok, I probably know what are you thinking. I know you are anticipating that I am mentally ill or about to be soon? and the answer is : No! absolutely not the case. You only think that way Due to this misunderstanding and judgement, people like me are often categorized into ‘the weirdo’ basket. What most people don’t realize is that you can be the ‘next weirdo’ if you are incapable of understanding your solitude, and it can affect anyone.

As the last word states, ‘solitude’ can be an ‘illness’, It’s a state of mind, and that’s exactly what it is. Just like cancer, or just like a skin disorder, the only difference is that you can’t see it. And just like these other illnesses, our feeling of incompleteness can be treated for recovery. At least that’s what I’d like to hope.

Not too long ago, in my recent past, I lost a friend, He was almost the same age of me and died unexpectedly. Unfortunately, I can’t tell you exactly what he suffered from because he never chose to disclose it, and we were not in close touch either. Therefore I couldn’t provide support to help him in anyway before he died. But his death somehow stuck me in the core. And I was depressed a few days before I recovered and forgot about him. And that’s why I think any state of mind including solitude and incompletness can be treated for recovery. I will know in few months or years If I am wrong today.

Personally, I have always enjoyed success in my career and my studies. I would to take pride of my genetic intelligence, I used to be caring, I was in few occasions a loving partner, and a great friend to the very people I call friends. And even so, I too have suffered from severe depression and anxiety over the year. Though it did not show on my living or I did not disclose to others. It was unlike what we see on movies, round table discussion, confession, meetings for psycho’s and addicts. (I dont think I was one of those kind, anyway!)

But If I didn’t mentioned my precautions and measures I took to avoid anything drastic would be unfair. I met an amazing woman who introduced me to Neuro-linguistic programming (NLP). NLP uses communication, and psychotherapy to help people achieve specific goals in life. I changed my perspectives in so many ways, I changed my diet (not effective as of today though), and I started riding motorcycle everywhere, eventually those small changes in life paid off. at least for a while – solitude and incompletness was gone.

I would not prolong this blabbering today. I Just wanted to share that mental solitariness is a treatable state. It is not something that people can just snap out of. They are just normal people. By simply sharing my story it may just help others or myself to overcome the of incompleteness and what it throws at us and get back to leading a ‘normal life’. Fuck off solitude and incompleteness.

Thanks for reading and if this helps anyone’s sinful mind to change, I will consider my writing a great success. Cheers!

Safin